Thanks for the emails. I am not taking meds for the virus right now. I am feeling much better, just a little stressed at times from office work.
I know I am doing good here and am helping a lot of people. I just don't feel like the people in the office here are really my friends yet. They are more of acquaintences. They worry about the work too much and sometimes go a little crazy. We have 4 gringos and two latins, so Spanish is not too common in the office. I actually prefer it to English. I just feel better talking in Spanish. It flows from the tongue easier for me. I guess the Lord has blessed me with so many good companions and greenies. I look up to each and every one of them. Each one has taught me so much about life and who I want to be when I am older. For instance, it's important to stay clean. I am teaching yet another latin companion to be clean. He doesn't like to clean for anything and expects me to do it, but I won't. I clean my things and his junk piles up. He gets disorganized and asks for more help so I give it to him in advice. When he gets clean, he sees things are easier and smoother. Slowly, but surely I am teaching through his own example, because I am not going to change him. He will change himself.
I have been thinking...has the mission taught me how to be a manipulator of people? No, it has taught me how to teach people. It has taught me a lot about unconditional love. I have learned so much that I just don't have time to explain it right now. Just know that I have learned a lot and you can probably see that in my speech and in the way I act.
Anyway, we did celebrate Thanksgiving last night. It wasn't a turkey or anything big. We just went to the store and bought some meat and bbq'd it. I didn't cook. I felt too lazy and too tired. We slept at the assitants house. I think I am just getting used to the fact that holidays don't really exist in the mission, but that's cool becasue the time flies by faster. Yesterday the mission president called me in the office and asked about travel info to Honduras. I gave him the information and asked if there was anything else I could do to help and he said, "Yes, buy this elder's bus ticket. We're sending him home today." That took me by surprise about how easy it is to just send someone home. It was done in about an hour and a half. I don't know why he went or what he did, neither do I want to know or care. It's not my business. I just know I felt bad for him at that time because I felt responsible for sending him home. I mean I bought his ticket and checked him out and everything. When he got there, he was smiling and didn't even look worried or ashamed to go home early. When I saw the way he was acting, I thought, "If you don't feel bad about going home early maybe you should be on this bus." Still trying to move on. It's just a great big lump in your gut when you have to do something like that.
We are trying to prepare a baptism for this weekend or tomorrow, but we are seeing how that goes. A lady told us she would come to church until she died, which doesn't seem too long from now to me, but she said she doesn't want to be baptized because its not a game. We told her, "Yes, we know!" That' s why she should be baptized, its not a game and her life could be so much better if she does get baptised. So right now she is thinking about it. We'll see how far that gets her before we need to help her again. It's like throwing a ball. It will only go as far as you throw it, then it stops and you need to throw it again. We are trying to make it so there is a line of people, each taking turns throwing this ball so it keeps going until it throws itself. Well, I need to go, but thanks for always being there guys. It means a ton to me.
Love,
Elder Proksch
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