So this week was slow for me. Technically, it was the end of the transfer and that weighs on your mind quite a bit. We tried sitting with a lot of new people as opposed to all the people that we already teach and it proved to be pretty difficult.
Other than that, we are trying to work harder and pushing ourselves. This week we ran out of gas in our propane tank and I went to go get some new gas. My companion had a headache so I went with another elder in my district. Picture this, if you will, two missionaries trying to lug a tank of gas all the way out to the gas station when, who shows up out of nowhere? President Kretly. Yep. The reason why I wasn't excited about it was because in two hours we had to be at the church with a bunch of other investigators so we could listen to Elder Hamilton, the general authority that was coming in. So President Kretly picked us up and asked us what we were doing and we told him we were going to get gas. He said that he would take us. The first gas station we tried didn't have any gas so we had to go all the way across town to get the gas. When we got there I realized that we needed to go to the back so we could get money. That's when President paid for our gas. That was embarrassing. Afterwards, he asked us why we didn't have money on us when we were going to buy gas. I told him it was my fault because we had not gotten to the bank that day. I felt extremely humbled by the whole thing. It probably wasn't that big of a deal, but I only see President a few times a year and the one time he sees me, personally, up in Beira, I am less than prepared and not with my assigned companion. It's like every time is another first impression with him and I don't feel like I am making such a good impression. Not only with when I meet him, but also with my statistics. Things have been kinda difficult for me the past two transfers (sorry to bring this up now). I just feel like I am less motivated and things constantly (or so it seems) slip through my fingers. I know I am not perfect, but it's tough when you feel people point out your faults more than what you do good. This thing with President Kretly was kind of the last straw with me. No, I am not depressed. Just a little discouraged and feeling like I have lost my mojo a little. We have zone conference again and I am hoping that this will help lift me up a little and get me back on the right course. Just kind of a rough one right now, but it has to get bad before it gets good again I guess.
It was so good to hear about Kyle getting home. I read his letters and they are crazy. This last one was super cool. I am so glad to hear he is home. Tell him I said "hi" and stuff.
I loved your comment about George. That was super funny and I can't wait to get on a bike with him, as well as ride a little bit faster than nine miles an hour, but that's cool that you guys rode again.
I don't have much time this week, so I think I'll have to end here, but I am doing good. Sorry about the downer note, but I will have a better week this week because I am planning on it.
I love you guys. I did read the whole letter, I just don't have time to respond to it all. I'll write more next week.
Love you guys,
Elder Proksch
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